Dave, David, Alan and Dan

I’m getting asked a lot about how I’m feeling so I better update here!

Been a rough week or 2 for People Who Happen to Have Cancer, namely spinal, liver, and pancreatic. The list, unfortunately, doesn’t stop there: my oldest cousin Dave has also been diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer while checking for blood clots. His prognosis isn’t good, and my healing energy goes out to him. I wish he was online but I haven’t heard from him since I saw him at my grandmother’s funeral in ’01. Pancreatic cancer is one of the nastiest ones, as there’s usually no symptoms while it’s growing to a point where it’s inoperable; so when people find it by looking at something else that’s wrong, it’s usually too late.

For me, it’s been 8 days since my chemo infusion and i’m just now feeling normal again. I’m really feeling that extra bag of medicine, and the cold weather isn’t helping my sensitivity, which has set in and not abating between chemo visits now. I’ve also noticed lately that my pulse rate has jumped a little, hovering between 90-100 bpm and I could really ‘feel’ it in my chest and arms, so after letting my oncologist know, I went into the clinic and got some fluids, as those are some symptoms of dehydration.  I do feel better and my palpitations have gone away. Sitting here typing, at rest my pulse rate is 74 bpm, still high IMO. Since it didn’t used to be this way, I blame the extra chemo. That 1000 ml bag makes a good scapegoat.

Christine went in yesterday to check on some issues she’s been having with not sleeping well, and based on some lab tests she went in for a CT scan of her own. Needless to say I was extremely apprehensive with hearing the results, and you can imagine my immense relief when the scan resulted in no real issues. Having my first scan back in October confirming my own cancer, I couldn’t help but fear the worst for her first scan. I talk a good game when it comes to overcoming my own stuff, but to have my primary support center be afflicted with anything would have taken my well-being down a peg or 2. I need her healthy, as I need you to be as well. Take care of yourselves, please.

So despite the recently bad news, my spirits are unable to come down. On the contrary, I grit my teeth a little more now and make sure I don’t cut corners on anything – I still walk every day that I can, take the stairs at work (5 flights, 2 times daily), get 8 hours of quality sleep per night, and generally conduct normal duties. There is no time for grief. The disciplined healing continues here; I do it for David, Alan, and Dan, and my cousin Dave.

10 thoughts on “Dave, David, Alan and Dan”

  1. Thanks for the update, and I’m SO glad Christine is doing ok. This must all be very stressful for her, so maybe just taking the extra time to try to make herself relax and take time for herself (easier said than done, I know!) would help.

    Indeed, a very good few weeks for cancer, and a very rough few weeks for the rest of us. David, Alan, and Dan will be missed.

    Keep up the good fight, and your amazing positive energy.

  2. I’ve got so much affection in my heart for both of you. Glad to here that things are relatively good for Christine. The stress on both of you must be overwhelming at times. Keep being good to each other and yourselves. You are both on my mind every day.

  3. Eric and Christine……We’ve got your backs! You have so many caring friends and family on your side. Keep your focus! Thank you for this update, you use words so well!

  4. I’m thinking of blaming Mercury in retrograde for some of this craziness, but I will admit its been hard. I’m learning fast that I have to find my own way of managing my feelings and stress. But I mimic everything Eric is feeling because I feel it too. The amazing, healing energy and support we both feel will get us all through this. Its hard for the kids, too and we are going to make sure they get the support they need too. I can’t thank you all enough for staying with us through this. Love to you and yours, and like Eric said, take care of yourself!

  5. Liked your commentary on those others dealing with this insidious issue. It spares no one in particular. Just drops its misery in the laps of others to deal with. Speaking of which how is the added dosage agreeing with you? Hoping your broad shoulders continue to bear up. I know they will. Cassie relayed her experience with Chris. I love her so and know she is trying so hard to not let her emotions show. Love you all. Grandpa

  6. Eric, you are such a STRONG person, both inside and out. Can’t imagine how stressful all this has been for you, Christine, and your family. You have a wonderful, caring support network of family and friends who keep you in our prayers every day. Love, Jo

  7. I’m so glad that Christine is okay. I can imagine how scary that must have been to have your primary support going in for tests of her own. I’m so sorry to hear about your cousin. I will hold a good thought for him. I am so impressed by your strength that, through all this, you refuse to give in to the negative thoughts and feelings.

  8. You are an inspiration — seriously. I truly believe that a positive attitude and sheer perseverance and yes, stubbornness, make a significant difference in recovery. So, you’ve got that covered! Sending love,

  9. Eric, Christine and entire family- Your strength and positive attitude is truly amazing! We have been following your wonderful progress for a while. Amber and I pray for you every night. She knows you as the guy who painted the picture of us that hangs on the wall!! Always remember to FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! Sending you all our love and positive thoughts!
    Love, Ben and Kelly

    “What Cancer Cannot Do”

    “Cancer is so limited……

    It cannot cripple love
    It cannot shatter hope
    It cannot corrode faith
    It cannot destroy peace
    It cannot kill friendship
    It cannot suppress memories
    It cannot silence courage
    It cannot invade the soul
    It cannot steal eternal life
    It cannot conquer the spirit”
    -Author Unknown

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